on the importance of money

I hate having to stress about money, especially since I know I shouldn't. I have family who pays for the things I need and a boyfriend who treats me to things I want. But yet I still get stressed and constantly check my bank account to see what else has been paid for. I just wish I didn't have to think about money as much as I do. Its not that I want to spend tons of money on new clothes or a new phone or things that are lavish, I just want to get coffee with a friend, or tea when I'm sick, or something nice for the apartment. I think it will be better once I can get a pay check from the lab because its been almost a year since I've actually earned money. I know I shouldn't stress and frantically go searching for a job but sometimes I just want to vent and have someone hand me 5 bucks and say its going to be alright. *sigh*